Funny how I always expect people to be monsters

re Bob Ray’s column about the book and the facts it reveals, and outing me, interesting that people are not hating and attacking me like I expected. Weird. Actually, people are saying he wrote a very powerful, spiritually uplifting column. And all the people who’ve contacted me acted real cool, in a real mature, supportive way, even tho nobody knew any of the details. Not what I expected. Funny how I automatically expect people to suddenly reveal seething evil and hate beneath their smiles. I’ve been thinking about this– I automatically expect people to be monsters against which I have to perpetually and forever brace and prepare myself. Most of my life my whole world view has been that everybody is a real or potential threat, the world is a dangerous hostile place, and it is always guaranteed to shift for the worse at any moment. Of course this is not how I inhabit the world now, but I think subconsciously some of these expectations of people suddenly revealing a truly hateful, evil side are still there.